gissy truly sux.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Okay boys. Back off. I am officially engaged. Betrothed to a man I don't even love. Seriously.

We're getting married next Saturday. There'll be a wedding rehearsal this Wednesday.

But there's a problem.. I think I'm lesbian.

Seriously. I have no idea why.. Its like.. When I see girls together (the playing kind or not), I'm pretty fine with it. When I see guys together, its just.. weird. Funny but weird. Interesting but odd. Gender prejudice, but that's beside the point. When I see a male and female together.. Its okay. Damn, I don't know what my point is anymore.

Okay.. I think I find it a little unacceptable for boys to be with girls at this age. My age. Its just.. weird. A girl with a girl, its alright. *blinks* NOW do you see what's weird?

I feel different when I'm with guys.. I can't really be myself. With girls, I -am- myself.

*LOL* No lah, its impossible for me for me to be lesbian. I mean, yes, it -is- possible, but.. I'm bisexual. I think. Isn't this against my religion?

I'm most likely straight. I think its just cause I'm from a girls' school and its natural for girls to be really close to them.

Here's a whole list of my lovers (female):
1. Dear
2. Darling-ex.
3. Cinammon
4. Pepper
5. Salt
6. Tehh
7. Honey
8. Starlight-starbright
9. Moonbeam
10. Sayang
11. Soya Sauce (But I call her "Soya" for short.)
12. Margarita

Note: Just in case any of you thought that all these were serious relationships.. They really aren't. And no, there isn't a list of males.

If I've forgotten to add you on the list, don't hesitate to tag on my board or tell me in person (no violence allowed) or send me an email at abrakedabra_poof@hotmail.com .

A few people think I'm sadistic now, just because I say "cool" at negative things.. Like.. things people don't say "cool" for. I can't really think of what, but yeah. I just say "cool" when things are out of the ordinairy.. And I see a little bit of literature stuff in it. Oh well, NOW you all know what a weirdo I am.

I'd better have a few more days of happiness before I'm married. Ta!

darkness falls at 5:23 PM