gissy truly sux.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Woke up with nearly my WHOLE body aching. Thanks to carrying the black benches all the way up to the Black Box from the Art Room. Carried one bench with Sherrie.. Wasn't easy walking, and the bench felt like it was made of teak. HEAVY..

After the dumb "signs" show, I kinda kept freaking myself out.

When the lift doors opened in the morning, I was afraid I would see an alien inside.

And.. usually, I'll sit outside the lockers on the second floor of the second block you'll see when you come into school, and wait for Marianne to come..

Every morning. There'll be a toilet just opposite me, and there'll be a staircase, where the lights of that staircase will go off at a particular time.

I didn't go up there today. I was afraid I would see an alien. *sniff* I mean, I don't believe that they exist.. But I kinda believe there IS a possibility.

*sighs* I think we're going to complete the show tomorrow.

Had a headache the whole day.. Not -that- bad, though.

Managed to persuade our Literature teacher not to give us "torture time" today. Its just essay-writing.. But we don't like it much.

Was REALLY tired today.. Didn't sing very very VERY much. Not as much as on other days.

Was rather down at the start of the day, especially after a teacher walked past me, then walked back.

"Gisella."

"Hmm?"

"I noticed something that day you gave the Guangdong presentation during assembly that day."
"Mhm."

"No offence (He/She said something to that effect.)!"

I nodded.

"You have a funny accent.. It was.. a funny accent.. I don't want it to affect the SJI collaboration.. isn't clear, the way you speak."

He/She started walking away (he/she's always in a rush). To lessons. I don't know why he/she's always rushing.

He/she speaks as he/she rushes off, "Speak normally! Speak normally!"

Teacher, if you're reading this.. I'm so sorry, I agreed to take no offense, but I just can't help it.

I mean, I always knew I had a funny accent, but I never thought it would be negative.

But no worries, I'll speak properly for EMDD and its rehearsals. I'll try, at least.

I was quite ticked.. Had half a mind to ask him/her to give Rachael back the role she rightfully deserved. But I knew I would cry (gosh, I'm turning into some eternally sodden sponge) if I ever told him/her that. I'm sorry Rachael.

I don't know why.. I just don't like confronting people, I guess. It makes me feel terrible.

Well, as the day progressed, so did my mood. Went a little insane during Literature, and after that, all was well.

But, of course, there were problems weighing me down, and I spent LOTSA time trying to find a perfect solution. I'm still thinking. I'll try and help if I can, otherwise I'll just keep my nose clean, pretend I never knew anything (which is going to be difficult), and STAY AWAY.

That's the perfect plan to save MY butt. Ain't that easy, though.

Give me some time, people.. I'll get things sorted out. I hope.

..There I go again, making "decisions" where I have no right to. Just give me the word, and I'll back off. Really.

darkness falls at 4:37 PM