gissy truly sux.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

It seems that nowadays, Sherrie and I are getting closer and closer, and I feel reeeeeaaaally good, cause.. I don't usually get close to juniors cause I'm sticking to the seniors most of the time. So.. yeah. Thanks Sherrie, for spending so much time with me and making me a happy woman!

Yesterday, Sherrie, Eunice and I went to Parkway Parade's Pastamania for lunch!

It was then that I looked at the black straws and asked Eunice how to make a straw heart.

Took me around fifteen minutes (Don't listen to Sherrie! I did NOT take one hour. :P) before I got it right.

Every heart I made after that was filled with love, and we walked the whole of Parkway to look for straws that we could buy to make those thinggies.. (Sherrie and Eunice were doing stars most of the time.)

We couldn't find any plain straws ("without the crinkle", I quote Sherrie), and ended up walking to the marketplace to look for straws. FINALLY, we found plain, transparent ones. 80 cents for one big packet. SHIOK! :D

We went back to Parkway, then went to The Coffee Bean. Eunice and I shared a drink and we stole a few purple straws from there, and made straw hearts and stars.

Then we went home.

TODAY... Hsuante, Wei An, Sherrie and I went for lunch at the McDonald's near Parkway.

Considering the fact that I was terribly.. "sianed" during Drama today.. I went uber hyper after drinking coke (at least I think that was it..).

Then we gave Wei An a tour of Parkway Parade cause he had never been to Parkway before. *lol*

Wasn't very eventful after that.. I think we function better sitting down in Mac's.

Okay.. After these updates..

SERIOUS MATTER.

Okay, xd was right.. the poster -does- kinda suck. EMDD, that is. Why? Because its only the two of us.

A close friend of mine keeps telling me how desperate I look cause I'm smiling so much and xd isn't smiling much.

Okay.. I can't blame anyone for that except myself for not checking to see how much xd was smiling.

Yesterday, a teacher told a few of our group to paste 8 EMDD posters about in the school.. in the places where people REALLY can see it.

I found it quite funny at first, so I laughed. I mean, DUH... Its Gisella. She laughs at everything, including herself.

So.. yeah. I was making fun of myself.. And a close friend of mine told me this.

"You should just stop saying you mind because you look like you're enjoying it." Or something to that extent. But I know the last few words are accurate.

I was DEEPLY hurt.. And kinda ticked off. If I were to tell you all this face-to-face, though.. I would probably just smile. And the smile will look natural and I wouldn't look like I mind a lot.

You can't just expect me to shoot the person with scathing words because I'm getting teased and I don't like it. They might call me petty.

Don't care about what other people say, some of you may tell me. Easier said than done.

She's known me for pretty long.. And she should know that I laugh at everything. Just because I'm laughing, doesn't mean that I'm enjoying looking like a desperado.

Okay.. She might have meant it as a piece of advice to me, but her tone suggested otherwise.

I mean.. What the!? I, honestly honestly, am NOT enjoying looking like a desperado.

Yes, I admit.. The fame gets to me. I thrive on fame. But not the negative way.

The most annoying thing about this production are the questions that I get.. sometimes, from people whom I don't even know.

Curiosity seeker: Hey, are you in EMDD?

Me: Uhh.. Ya...

Curiosity seeker: Oh, who're you acting as?

Me: The shrew.

Curiosity seeker: OH.... Who's the guy you're gonna kiss ah?

WTF? Number one.. Most of the people who ask me this question.. Wouldn't know WHO the guy is even if I tell them his name.

Me: ..I highly doubt you'll know even if I tell you the name.

Curiosity seeker: *sounding more and more excited* Is he good-looking?

Me: *getting rather annoyed* ..Okay lah..

I'm getting sick of this.

Now that I appear to be some desperate thing CLINGING to xd's arm, I can only imagine how people're gonna treat me when school reopens and everyone sees the posters.

I really hope they know that Gisella's smiles always look natural, unless she makes it look unnatural on purpose. If you have any friends who feel that I joined EMDD because of the guys, and am boy-crazy (which "explains why I look so happy to cling to xd's arm"), please send them directly to me, or you can always defend me.

If you have no idea where I am, you can always ask them to look me up in Secondary 406. I don't really give much of a poop who the person is.. But I'll think of a way to explain. Or maybe I shouldn't even explain. Pfft. So.. yeah. The contradictive me has decided to just leave all those people alone. Yep.

Oh, and if you were wondering WHY I joined EMDD.. Here's the story.

I was doing an article for the second day of the EMDD auditions, but I went on the first day to accompany Nadia. Those were the auditions for the non-drama students.

So.. I was there.

After the auditions..

One of the drama teachers: Gisella, are you going for the EMDD auditions tomorrow?

Me: ..Uhh.. Not sure.

One of the drama teachers: *suddenly turns really fierce* GO. I want you to go. Its your ticket to Drama club next year. *then turns rather gentle* Go, Gisella, I think you've got a good chance. I will make sure you <..I don't remember what he/she said.. but it kinda.. had a hint that she was gonna put in a good word for me or something.> *wiggles her brows confidently*

Me: *pretty stunned* ..Uhh.. ya, I will. Okay.

So I went for the auditions. I initially had second thoughts about joining EMDD, what with my O-levels and all coming up.. But I thought it was quite cool to be able to work with another school, a boys' school too. How often do such opportunities come up? I had never acted with boys before.. Good experience, I figured, since I would most probably not pursue drama after I leave my school.

In other words, I did NOT join EMDD to widen my range of boys to choose from to be my boyfriend or anything like that. I joined EMDD because it was a very special chance.. And I thought it was a musical. And I loved EMDD because it brought the students from different CCAs together. And I was unwilling to not do EMDD in my LAST year, since I've been doing it for two years. And yes, I thought the fame was fun.

So.. Yeah. I found out I was 1st cast for Kate.

CHEATER, you all must be saying..

Yes, cheater indeed. I was supposed to be second cast, I tell you all now.

Then a teacher spoke to Jeffrey and asked him to give me a chance because this was my last year.

There you go. I was first cast again. I honestly felt terrible about it.. I did apologise to Rachael.. But somehow, I felt and still feel its not enough.

Anyways, back to WHY I said "No problem" when a teacher asked me if I could and wanted to do EMDD after the results were officially out.

Because. I'll be honest. I got the lead role. Achievement? Yep. Big one. I thrive on fame, remember?

It was such a BIG chance. I wouldn't be getting a lead role ever again. Not in the same way, ever. I couldn't just give it up like that.

Yes, I was kinda.. stunned, when I saw the number of lines I had. I had second thoughts about staying on.. But the promise of fame and hence, fun, and the beautiful chance and opportunity (not to go boy-catching.. opportunity to be in EMDD again) pulled me back to my first thoughts.

And so, here I am now, facing all these dumb problems which I had never expected to come.. being bugged by people, being teased by people.. I'm getting a little ticked.

Someone told me this when I was teased by him/her about xd.

"Don't pretend. I know you like it." And boy, honey. He/she didn't look like he/she was joking.

I get this all the time.. Not only from him/her.

And it sucks. Big time.

Gosh.. End of whiney post. I don't want pity this time. Only to be understood and to have my wishes be respected. In case you still don't know what my wishes are:

1. Don't tease me unless you know that I'm fine with it because you know enough about me to tease in the right way so I wouldn't mind.

2. Stop with the questions about the "guy I'm gonna kiss". Its damned childish. Its JUST a kiss, poots.

darkness falls at 5:02 PM