gissy truly sux.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Okay.. The words are superly big. *lol* Got a virus on my computer. Might be spyware, though.

Oh well, back to the old times.. "xiang dang nian"..

Remember I couldn't think of anything to blog about? Yeah, back to those times. Well, I'm only blogging cause I feel this obligation to. And Auntie Evangeline's the guest star of this post. Not that she's gonna be interviewed or anything. :D

If you wanna check out her blog, its one of the links at the side.. I'm too nice, I'm actually giving her blog more publicity. Cause mine's so good, I just can't bear to see her blog go down.. I'll have to advertise for her. :D

So. Back to those times again. Let's check out Merriam Webster!

dyspepsia • \dis-PEP-shuh\ • noun

1 : indigestion

*2 : ill humour : disgruntlement

Example sentence:"As his prestige grew," wrote historian Daniel Boorstin about Sir Isaac Newton, "so did his dyspepsia, his unwillingness to give credit to others or share credit for his great discoveries."

*Indicates the sense illustrated in the example sentence.

Whee. So. Speaking of indigestion.. There'll be tummyaches and such, yeah? And speaking of tummyaches.. How do people know when they're having gastric pains?

Sometimes I think I get gastric, but I'm not sure. I mean, number one, I'm pretty healthy, and I don't get tummyaches often. Number two, I skip meals pretty often, and I don't get what I think is gastric most of the time..

So when I get these odd tummyaches (they feel like.. something sharp's piercing me in my stomach).. Err.. so its not exactly an ache, its a pierce. Okay.. you all get the idea.

Now, the hydrochloric acid's starting to take effect on the stomach (or is that for stomach ulcers?).. Does it really feel like that? Argh. This is why I fail chemistry.

So! My point is!

Umm.. Okay. I don't -have- a point. My question is.. What does it really feel like?

And! Speaking of ill humour.. You know what? I really don't know what to type. :P

Happy belated Merry Christmas! And happy new year in advance! And happy Chinese New Year in advance!

Speaking of Chinese New Year.. Must look for a new non-black bag to store my red packets in. :D

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Friday, December 23, 2005

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

*cheers* Near perfect. I think. Y'all can start pointing things out which you don't see. Its superly fun!

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

Rules of the game:

Post 5 Weird and Random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yours.

1. I love Michael Buble but I love Clay Aiken more. :D

2. I love to eat but I'm not exactly what would call fat.

3. I like dark colours, and I believe there's a meaning to each of them.

4. I'm currently cravingless, which is weird cause I love eating.

5. I like classical music and jazz, but I like punk rock too. *blinks*

5 PEOPLE TO DO THIS: My sis, Ying, Kyle, Belle, Xin. Hurry hurry!

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Yay! I think I kinda believe a little more that Jesus should be worshipped! Last night, I made a last-minute prayer to Jesus and asked Him to give me the best dream ever!

Amazingly.. I dreamt of a close friend I had seen only three years ago. We went to different secondary schools, see.

I dreamt that I was in school queuing for something(I don't know what) with my dad. And all of a sudden, I saw Vivian (that's her)! I was overjoyed! And then, I saw her dad too! (I really don't remember if I had ever seen him before IRL.) We were all queuing for something.. And, of course, there were others about.

So we were chatting and all, and later we moved to what was the general office(it was located at where the lower staff room is now.. And it looked very very different.). Anyways, my dad was already in there queuing.. Again.. Just in a different place.

And I told my dad that we would sit at the sofas slightly further in while he queued. Vivian's father kinda.. disappeared:P

Right before we walked to the sofas, this guy with a "qian bian" look cut my daddy's queue! We shooed him off. I felt annoyed.

After the problem was settled, we went to sit at the sofas. I don't remember anything after that, so maybe nothing happened.

Now, the weird thing about this dream is that I actually felt something, unlike the other dream. And once again, I never even thought about Vivian. Its been ages since I thought about her. I think.

I don't know if all this is part of my mind.. There's just this part of me that's unwilling to believe. I guess I'm too practical. Not that I don't like being practical.. Makes me special, see? :D Just need a little faith.

Anyways! Harry Potter. There are some parents who don't allow their kids to read Harry Potter books. That is just plain stupid. Sorry if you feel offended that I'm insulting your parents..

If these parents don't allow their kids to read Harry Potter books and/or watch Harry Potter movies because:

1. of their religion, be it the kid's or the parents'.
Perhaps the parent(s) is/are afraid that the kid is too susceptible to believing that such sorcery and magic is true, and might actually lose faith in the God they worship. That, I cannot find fault in. But do you really hold such low faith in your child to not succumb to such ideas? Unless they really are unable to control what they believe in, and are that naive, then yes, I cannot blame the parents again.

2. the parents think that it is useless reading such nonsense.
English. Improve vocabulary. J.K. Rowling's descriptions are not very good, IMO, but I believe that she is very intelligent and can plan things well. There is always something to learn from a book. I mean, how many Singaporean kids have good English? Disgusting and embarrassing.

About the movies.. Its just for entertainment. Granted, I do not believe this is essential. So if parents don't allow them watching the movies because its a waste of money, its fine. I myself watch the movie only because I want to bitch about it later and test my memory.. To see how many things about the movie are different from the book that I can spot.

One thing i find weird... How come there are so many more people against Harry Potter than Lord of the Rings?

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

I wrote this in about half an hour, I think.. Its gonna be put up on my other blog too. Well, for once, it ain't a sad story! But yes, there is death involved. But no, it ain't a major part, for once. :D Specially for Christmas.

Here's the message:
Appreciate this season of sharing and giving. No matter how unhappy you are, or how much you are unwilling to celebrate Christmas, if you are willing to enjoy and not dwell in your own misery, its the best time to celebrate. Make full use of it.

Dearest Mr. Claus,

I am writing to you to thank you for a dream I had experienced just a few days ago.

I dreamt that you came to me and bestowed upon me all that I wished for. You were even in possession of the glowing halo that all angels and saints have had ever since they existed. But yours, Mr. Santa, was the biggest I had ever set my eyes upon. It looked as though the biggest doughnut ever was hovering about over your head. I reached out to take it, but you laughed that merry old laugh of yours, and before I knew it, all the food I could ever imagine I could have appeared before me on this large, wooden dining table complete with a Christmas table runner.

Do you remember, Santa? On it were nuts and drinks of all kinds, fresh potato salad, hot cross buns, hot dogs, many many packets of chips, and what every Christmas table should have, a large and warm roasted turkey. I feasted my eyes upon the overwhelming amount of food before looking around for my family. My father, my mother, my younger brother who was so small he couldn’t speak. All of a sudden, they appeared around the table and we began to eat. It was the best dinner I had ever had. Ever.

Do you remember all that, Santa? I do. This is a letter from me to you to thank you specially for that wonderful feast that I would never have had. You made my Christmas.

Are you an Angel of God? Please reply.

Yours sincerely,
Susan

P.S. I learnt how to fold a paper heart on the last day of the school term. Hope you like it.

Folding a paper heart with gloves on was no easy feat, though they were thin. Her small fingers fumbled clumsily with the last step of completing the heart she tried so hard to make perfect. Pressing it flat, Susan sat up from between the graves of her family and laid the white heart lightly on the snowy ground before her.

A whisper of a slight grin touched her lips, then broke into a true smile as she gazed up at the beautiful azure sky above. She dropped her gaze back down to the paper heart and sheltered it lovingly with snow. Her gloved hands were covering the heart protectively when she was done, and together with the warmth of her bare cheek pressing against her hands, Susan felt, as she closed her eyes, that it was the best Christmas ever.

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Three more additions to my Christmas list! I have a feeling that I'll be superly disappointed cause I wouldn't find myself finding at least half of what I wanted on my Christmas list. :( PLEASE... I'm begging you all! Gimme gimme gimme!

I had a really really super dream last night! Well, now I believe in God, truly truly. I've asked myself many times if I believed there was a God. I know I always said I did, but.. the truth is.. I didn't know. You know, there're just some questions you ask yourself and you just don't find an answer? Yeah, that was one of it.

So! This sounds really childish, but I prayed to God last night and I asked him to give me a really great dream! Real entertaining, like.

Wow, it worked. And the thing is.. I highly doubt it was my brain at work cause I went to sleep without any thoughts. But then again.. I woke up late for church, so I didn't go. Weird huh? :P

Groundless beliefs, many of you say..

Anyways, to Christians who believe that they shouldn't question the existence of God.. That's crap. To me, at least. Why not question His existence? You have a right to know. But then again, a faith is based on FAITH. And faith means believing and trusting in someone or something whether or not it has proof.

So.. maybe, on the other hand, what -I- am saying is crap. :P

Anyways, yeah. My dream! Superly funny.

I dreamt that this guy in a suit was cornering me and was gonna attack me.. So I decided to kick him. Right leg swing inwards to the side of his left knee and across to knock him over.

*ROFL* Sorry, can't stop laughing.

I did just that in my dream, and as soon as the foot of the me on my bed collided with the wall on my left, I woke up. *LOL* I hit my last three toes on my right foot. Superly funny.

Anyways, the weird thing was.. Throughout the whole dream, I wasn't angry or scared or frustrated. Which is superly weird.

And I didn't even feel annoyed when I was arguing with my mum at the back of the bus at the end of my dream.

It was a very very long dream.. Though I can't remember most of it anymore. Its a dream made up of many many dreams.

I dreamt I was walking to different restaurants like Delifrance, etc.. Looking for food costing less than $8, which is really what I have in my wallet now. I think.

Anyways! I lurve lurve heart Mahjong! I'm suffering withdrawal symptoms now. Help!

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Sunday, December 04, 2005

Yay, four more additions to my Christmas list. :D

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Friday, December 02, 2005

*cheers for me* Three more additions to my Christmas list after walking around in Suntec and Raffles City today! I remember there was a lot more.. But I don't remember anymore. Oh well!

Oh oh oh! My mummy's gonna take me to Parkway Parade for a haircut tomorrow! Finally! I won't look very different, don't worry. I don't want fringe, cause it makes me look even stupider than I seem. And fringe gets in the way of many many things. And it sticks to your forehead when you perspire. So its a no-no.

I want everything tied up neatly! I'm leaving it to my mum to decide how my hair's gonna be cut.. Aww.. I really wanna take a picture of my hair before its cut, but I'm too lazy. So.. forget it. :D

Okay! I'm outta inspiration! Can't blog anymore! Ta!

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Oh oh oh! If you wanted to make something for me, a card or whatever, it can either be super cute, or superly.. dark. :D Not too gory, can't really take it.

Here are the nice colour combinations that would really make my day:
Black and silver
Black and purple
Black and-

You know what? Anything with black. :D

And other nice combinations you think I'll like.

Here are the icky colour combinations that would really spoil my day:
Red and blue
Pink and purple
Purple and blue
Purple and red
Pink and blue
Red and pink

If you don't know what to do now, just use one colour:D

Nice colours that would make my day:
Black
Silver
Silvery purple
Normal purple
Dark red (NOT maroon)
Dark, poisonous green
Dark, stormy blue
Bright happy yellow
Bright fresh orange
Bright lime green
Grayish blue(The pretty one!)

Ooh! I had a sudden "ideal" present. Not very ideal, but pretty good idea. I lurve lurve heart nice eyes! Nice coloured eyes! It would be nice if you got me a picture of nice eyes. Or an eye. It'll be nice if you got just the eye. :D You could always use that as a card. Or you could always search for a picture of my eye and write on the card that mine's the most beautiful one cause I see everything. Yes, I'm joking. :D Now that I've mentioned the idea, people wouldn't know if I'll be surprised or not when I see the present, and thus would most likely not try it. HA! Making your job more difficult, eh?

Okay, about yesterday.

I HATE SEESAWS.

We were at Rachel's house celebrating her birthday, and we were at the playground just downstairs. There were two wooden seesaws (for adults), and there was the kids' one.

I did the most unbelievable thing: Play with a kid. That Caucasian kid was about 3 or 4.. Most likely 3. And he just came up to me when I was playing with that.. thing. That thing that's pretty similar to a "flying fox" activity. And he said that he could do that too.

So! I saw his maid around, and I couldn't purposely make it very clear that I didn't like kids much. I just went "Can you reach it?" with a little smile. And he was like "Yeah!" And he started hopping about, trying to reach for the handle above.

And he kinda followed me around.. And when he left me, I went back to my group of friends and asked if anyone wanted to go on the seesaw with me! And one of my friends, An Yi (I'm superly sorry if I got the spelling wrong or something.), agreed to play with me!

(I was deprived of the seesaw when I was young cause I was too light. Never had the fun cause I always ended up on the top. No fun.)

So, we played for a while, and all of a sudden, that kid joined us and just plopped himself on the seat in front of me. *mutters* I, of course, couldn't do a thing. And, much to my shock, his mum was sitting on a bench just three or four or five metres behind me. I smiled and waved to his mum and turned back around, blinking a few times. *laughs* Oh well.

So yeah. The amazing thing is that.. I played with a kid. And for once.. For once, I actually wondered what would be the thing or event that would make me change my attitude, and make me want to have a kid of my own.

And then, AMAZINGLY (Yes, I keep using this word. Just to emphasize my point. :D), I started wondering what it would be like if I had a kid and was really happy. And ever since yesterday, those stupid thoughts have been bugging me.. And for some odd reason, I felt worried. I still do. I'm very worried. And scared. Don't ask me why, I don't know myself.

Okay, why do I hate seesaws!? I was really having fun then! (Oh, I was on the kids' one then.)

So An Yi and I got off the seesaw, cause our friends called us back to the group. After a while, I got bored, and I asked Charmaine to join me on the adults' seesaw. Or rather, the larger one. That wooden one had a tyre beneath each end so it would bounce back up, like a seesaw should. The smaller one had a spring thing. :P

So.. What the weird thing was, was that I was still very light. *grumbles* And every time my side hit the tyre, I would bounce on my seat. No, it didn't really hurt. Then, there was once, I don't really remember what happened, but I tried to get off, I think, when Charmaine was kinda unaware, and I didn't get off in time, and ended up falling on my seat. Ouch. (And Charmaine was only 42. And I gained 2kg, remember?) Not painful enough to make me say "Ouch" out loud, though.

And then another friend of mine suddenly charged towards Charmaine's side, threatening with his actions to bounce onto her side. I, of course, was freaking scared, and of course, jumped off. The moment I relieved my side of its weight, Charmaine went down, and my side, of course, went up and hit me again. 42 newtons or so worth of force against me was.. Excruciating. I really went "Oww oww oww". I'm kinda suffering the aftereffects now. It was a huge blow to deal with. :P No one really noticed then, though. I couldn't possibly grab myself and hop around in pain in public, in front of many many guys. :P

So.. yeah. I don't like seesaws anymore. Its really a sad story.

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Just a first note: There are some additions to the Christmas list, though I cannot be sure if there'll be more to come. So far there've been two to the original. :D Keep watching for more!

I'm a little bored now.. I'll update you all on what happened yesterday at Rachel's birthday party. :D

Ta!

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